I am Different!

I think difference means; letting yourself actually be yourself. Sure that might sound like a bunch of bs. But it's so true.

I can't even began to imagine a world of same people. How boring would that be. We all look, talk, walk, think the same way...I don't know about you but when I think about that I think about robots. And frankly I am not a robot. We are different for a reason.

I know it's hard to show are differences because we often think of them as "bad" things. We may have those but they make us unique.

Every since I was really little, people would ask me to describe myself and one thing I would always say is that I am unique. I remember being praised whenever I said it. At the time I just thought I was saying something other people didn't know about. But know I truly agree with my child self.

I am unique, I am different.

And though sometimes I don't like my differences I need to embrace them  because without them I would not be me!

I am different and unique and PROUD :)

Puppies

I think this might be a little silly. But for me puppies keep me going. They need you and remind me that I am needed. For me sometimes I forget that. And I'm sure it's true for a lot of people too...

Puppies always love you :) They don't judge. They follow you like you are the most important person no matter what! They don't talk back. They understand when your upset, they listen! And they are always in the mood to cuddle.

I know that is defiantly not even close to a thousand words but that's okay :)

Forgotten Brothers

I could not imagine the struggles of men ED.
To be quite honest I was a little confused by this writing challenge at 1st because it is truly a challenge, to think about things through another person's perspective especially another gender's perspective. 
My guess is that it would be difficult. Finding support from friends would probably be extremely difficult, because men suffering from anorexia is not the "in" thing. I'm guessing it would also be very difficult to get the support of your parents. I mean that is a struggle most, at least I even struggled with but still.

Letter to my T

Dear Rita (My therapist),
I need you to be honest with me. I also want you to push me, but also to take it easy on me when you know I am struggling. But mostly I just need a cheerleader someone to let me know I can get through my hardest days and darkest days. Thank you for always helping me :)

Love,
Megan

Catching Up.

So I'm kind of majorly slacking, I will try to keep more up with this. Things have just been stressful and very busy the last few days
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Hum, This one is a little difficult :/ I think if I had to create a mascot it would be a journal. I'm sure this is strange me giving characteristics to something that is suppose to not have any...It's always there for me on my good days and bad days. It shows me how far I came from. I think my journal is a dam pretty good mascot :)

Another difficult one really...

Humm.

1st my Eating Disorder Slogan: Get ready or not but prepare yourself for a very bumpy ride, and a crash at the bottom.
And

My Recovery Slogan: Simply live life day to day, because you never know what will happen tomorrow and why go back and change the problem?

 Oh gosh...

Even though it doesn't seem like I appreciate my body, I truly do. I love my eyes, everyone compliments them. The way they are radiantly blue, and are truly sparkly. What else, I love that I have a naturally small waist. Something that I like is my feet they are a great size 8 and I love that they proportional (just a little OCD) :). Other than that I love my nose, it's a great shape know all I need is it to be pierced and I would be happy!

Reasons to Fight ED

10. To stay healthy. No food = crappy immune system = colds = :(

9. Having going out to dinner with friends and actually enjoying myself.

8. Not having to worry about counting calories in everything...

7. Fitting in to my favorite clothes.

6. Being comfortable enough to go shopping :)

5. People don't have to worry about you as much.

4. No mean comments. 

3. You don't have to lie...

2. The ability to reach for your goals

1. The realization of seeing how far you have come, and how far you can keep going :)

Why do I Write?

So I decided after seeing that I lacked in April writing blogs that May I will write everyday.

I did not however get this inspiration by myself rather from another blog I read. There is a challenge going on to write about a different topic everyday so I think I am going to start :) Here's to the challenge and writing even when I don't feel like it :P

Before starting to read other people's blogs I felt truly alone. I never had to friends I could really feel comfortable talking to about my eating disorder. So I came to the web and started reading about. So I guess why I actually started to write was because it gives me an outlet for my thoughts and ideas.

No one is going to judge me or at least let's hope not...I can talk about anything on here. And I do enjoy the feedback.

Another reason I write is so that I can look back at the things I do write about and realize what was going on that day and why I did certain things.

One last reason is that I am passionate about writing! I love it and without it I don't know where I would be :)